I look up and see a light shining at
the end of the dark street. I start walking
toward the light, as I get closer I can
sense the warmth coming from inside.
It’s coming from inside of a beautiful
white house with a high iron fence,
encircling it as as if to protect it from me.
“Hello, hello” I scream, but there is
no answer, only silence greets me.
My fingers feel numb as I reach for the
gate. I pull only to find, that it is
I am not invited!
I release the air from my lungs slowly,
and let my head fall forward on my chest.
The wind blows harder, making the rain feel
like a thousand needles pricking my skin.
I walk around the gate calling out to
someone, anyone, but there is no
response… No one can hear me.
I hear a child’s laughter coming from inside,
and a squeal of delight from another.
I look up at the window, and remember
what I’ve been searching
for is inside this house!
Tears stream down my face, and my
shoulders fall a little more.
I am not invited!
All of this is of my own making and choosing.
I look to the heavens, silently asking my
creator for guidance How do you choose
between the people you love?
I am missing out on so much-
The children I should be caring for,
someone else is caring for.
The laughter I am hearing,
someone else is experiencing.
Please help me I cry!
I don’t think both worlds will ever
come together and be as one.
Lighting slashes across the sky,
and the clouds make the sound of swords
clashing, as if to battle.
It’s beautiful and at the
same time so frightening.
Is this my answer, what will tomorrow
bring I wonder? As I turn to walk away
I hear a child’s voice say mama, and
then another from behind.
Time stands still, I turn slowly
and my eyes meet those of
a little girl and a boy…
and I walk, hoping I’ll get
there in time…
*I found some old poetry that I had wrote a long time ago,
and I thought I would share it with you all. This poem was
written in about 2004
(The photo I used is by Jonathan Kos-Reed on Flickr called ‘Alone’).